Thursday, January 21, 2010


Now, one may wonder, why the hell do i dare post, when no one comes here anyways? Easy, this is my release. This is where i say the shit i can't in Facebook, or in person, or to friends. Well, I was right, it wasn't gonna happen. Thing is, i dont feel so shitty any more, thanks to a friend. She's the only one Ive told, and I think i'll keep it that way; I dont need pity, i need music and good company, and i have both right now.

So hey, in the end, her loss. Air is cleared, closure gained.


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Heart's A Mess

I'm going to be blunt. Fuck This. I'm almost literally picking my heart up off the floor. She didn't have to say anything. I think she's been saying it all along, just not directly. It didn't bother me when i came to the same conclusion over the weekend, but as I sit here, it's hit, kinda hard. Fuck this, fuck love, and fuck you. But thanks for visiting, honestly. I can't even be truly happy about my friends and their mind blowing orgasms...that scares me. I'm going to hate tomorrow morning. I need someone who understands...anyways, good night all. I'll catch up with everyone at a later time.