I'm going to be blunt. Fuck This. I'm almost literally picking my heart up off the floor. She didn't have to say anything. I think she's been saying it all along, just not directly. It didn't bother me when i came to the same conclusion over the weekend, but as I sit here, it's hit, kinda hard. Fuck this, fuck love, and fuck you. But thanks for visiting, honestly. I can't even be truly happy about my friends and their mind blowing orgasms...that scares me. I'm going to hate tomorrow morning. I need someone who understands...anyways, good night all. I'll catch up with everyone at a later time.